My First Love

8 years ago..

He is so handsome in my eyes..

He is like a Taiwanese actors.. F4 is so famous at that time..

He is so clever..

He  able to play lot of music instruments like violin, piano and electone..

He must be a romantic guy ever..

I like him..

I am so much in crush with him..

I want him to be my boyfriend a lot..

I admired him..

He is my idol..

But.. 6 years age gap difference makes him not seeing me as girl..

I'm too childish, too small, too not so for him..

Yeah it's true..

I am still just a grown up girl..

I am still very young..

I let him go after several weeks trying to get his attention..

I give up..

No hope for me..

2 years later..

I have grown up as a teenage girl..

I start to contribute in social activities like orchestra, church activities and more..

My mom said I was like a fresh red rose..

I am so attractive..

I am so fresh..

I am so.. seduce..

Yeah.. so many boys keep coming to me..

Trying to get me..

Get my heart..

Having me as their girlfriend..

I am so happy..

So proud of my self..

I love my life..

What can you expect from a lovey dovey life?

He is coming back..

The one that I like 2 years ago..

He.. I met him in the church orchestra..

He still charming.. in my eyes..

He is still.. my idol..

As time goes by..

We frequently met because of the orchestra practices..

Yeah I can feel it..

He start to like me already..

He start to flirt with me..

I like it..

I like the way he tease me..

I like the way he try to grab my attention..

I like it..

Nothing can describe how the butterflies in my stomach keep moving around like crazy..

3 months later..

He propose me..

What can you expect from a 14 years old girl??

Uncertainty, unsure, but want..

The first time he propose me..

I reject it..

My family were in shock I come home with tears.. and I cried in front of them..

I still remember my lil brother's babysitter said " Oh I feels like want to cry too seeing you cry.."

I cried and cried all night..

I cried a river..

I cannot believe I reject him..

My idol..

The one that I want to have from long time ago..

I reject him..

One night after that..

We met accidentally in the church..

He is on duty and I am accompanying my mom..

We met together..

I still remember my mom tell me not to cry again..

I did not cry..

I am happy to meet him for unknown reason..

To stay beside him.. it's enough for me..

To be able to see him.. it's a heaven for me..

Surprisingly..

He propose me again that time..

I forget what I said that time..

But I still remember he said.. "we try first.."

And that is how I get into my first relationship..

My first love..

My idol..

My everything..